For a while we were nothing
eyes that touched but didn’t speak
Together in the corporeal sense
we kept a bolt of politeness folded between us
recognizing only as much
as the negative space our bodies make
in the background landscape of disparate worlds
Now the veil is dropped
I look at you and our eyes
can hold hours of conversation
You see me even in absence
recognizing the shape of the spirit
and your world had become the foreground of mine.
Is there a fire burning somewhere near?
The smell of Halloween floats on the air,
Not heavy-hanging wood-fire smoke, but bright
And fast like sparklers fizzing gunpowder:
A crackling blaze that bristles on the wind.
The waft of tea lights flickering against
The charred black ceiling of their pumpkin heads
Is dark and full as earth’s entombing kiss.
The moon alight with jack-o-lantern glow,
The stars stark white just like a host of ghosts
Where clear sky holds the gentle tang of rot,
The fallen apple’s ferment, cider sour,
Sharp spice of leaves that tumble all around,
and must of fresh-turned dirt and sweet wet grass.
The name of all these memories escapes
My heart, to hover just before my eyes
A cloud dissolving as it joins the sky
And all those burning, dying, aching smells,
A gasp of soul that leaps to join the march
Of footfalls that we cannot hear and names
Forgotten to the depths of time. Will night
Forever feel this way on Halloween?
The prick of fear and hitch of breath,
To know one foot in winter and in death,
But cling to energy’s ascending buzz
That raises all the hairs on craning necks.
We cast a look behind us, as compelled,
By feeling something must be there and yet
Are only met with whispers of a smell
of fire burning somewhere near, and else,
Unnameable and hidden in plain sight.
From depths of earth up to the firmament,
The tingle of familiar, unseen,
This jolt of sensory, pursuing me,
As if October’s dying breath possessed
Me, fast decaying, yet, commanding me to live.
The sideways stretch of willow’s rise
towards the light, over the lake
with roots entrenched in water’s breath
reminds me of far younger limbs.
We drank its life with thirsty eyes
and tossed our lines imperious
from lung to lung and tongue to tongue
as climbing, thought to never fall.
Perhaps you know the tree I mean,
whose branches held us year through year:
those moments lost as drops of rain
whose ripples fade as they become
rejoined with earth’s cyclical corps.
The trunk is smooth and welcoming,
inviting us once more to feel
soft brushing fingers splayed in climb
and muscles tightly gripped in legs;
where one foot leans in old-time’s-sake,
one hand reaches to future’s hold.
Were you as vine to me, or leaf?
Of wind-stirred touch, or steady hand?
Some times I think we have been all
the aspects of the willow tree,
my wistful sorrow and strength both
engrained in heart and memory
these limbs of childhood that sway
in challenge and in loyalty.
Blue light dipping in foot rhythms;
ice melting in cocktails
turned slippery in condensation
and summer’s oil-like, lithesome limbs.
Open this throat like a yawning tunnel
and slug the sound of saxophone
flooding light
that gaping darkness
in the fire of jazz and whiskey
where releasing the weight of aching minds
in inky heads with ears sloshing full,
we curve exposed and arching
to collapse the demure decorum of posture and silence.
How else could we know this poetry on the ceiling,
mark the faces emotive on heavily swishing heads
bobbing and swaying like boats
on an atmospheric sea
that spans the coasts of seat and stage,
where stolen winds of conversation swept us to shore together
on an island of familiar sands and rhythmic tides;
a common ground below swooping seagull glares,
who circle back to cast their echoed caws of offence.
But loftily trapped above the warmth of feet in sand
how could they know that all this music is not for silent listening?
It is proximity.
To hear the grit of sand between your grinding teeth
or to part expression’s maw
and suffocate silence with drunken grains of warmth,
compacting and settled in every unknown space – which is closer?
It’s the water carrying the boats
and in the wind it’s fire on a darkened cold
it limbers and pumps each human inch to action;
it touches everything.
It is flood,
irresistible synchronicity of movement:
life and time are coiled here
to spring into a common pace with strangers and their leap is like
a breath lost at the lurch of sensory plunge:
spots of colour over vision locking eyes with the sun,
ribs throbbing in the slow after sprinting to catch up,
breaking the surface of the deep,
that gasp for air,
here now our footfalls dip
as one blue rhythm,
joint with breath in-taken.
In unison,
shouting out,
unending melody,
identity:
the riff just keeps on going.
We move in step.
Violet morning
like youthful eyes in the face
of an aging year
A window clutching lines of rain
the bramble of dew glistened thorns
waves of yellow topped stalks
the farmhouse looking sturdy
with sloping roof and distant white walls
a wisp of mist like prelude to Halloween
the mountains cold morning blue,
all folded one after the other
like stacks of clean laundry
straightened by some maternal hand
and behind them all,
the sky.
The meeting of our eyes was the weight of letters packaged and tied
flat in my palm, as I received them,
and every greeting was untying the strings that bound them.
You laughed and it was the sound of my finger hooked under the envelope’s mouth
and tearing—the smooth slip of opening—
and unfolding.
I agreed with the dreams you couldn’t keep off your tongue
and steadily we smoothed out
the pages of our separate hearts
and read them.
old embers flit along the line of clouds,
like fingers strum horizon’s humming haze,
a distant note reverberates, on fire
and striking rain-soaked sky like lit up gasoline.
Grey echoes buzz, the mountains shake
are dancing through the flame
are casting shadows creaking like a closing door:
the hinges on a rusty autumn day
thrown into darkness thick as smoke
the last notes ringing in the night.
We craned our necks to comprehend
The weaving of the cosmos, thick
Yet delicately infinite.
Our eyes swam through the milky way,
A winding river’s silver run
Horizon to horizon’s bend,
Inviting us to race along
And tempting, teasing, find its end.
Those planets, patterns, unknown skies,
And us: sprawled on the sand dune’s back.
Thus wrapped in deeply velvet night,
The grinding wheels of Time stood still
To cool their gears, to better gaze.
We brushed our teeth behind the tent —
As campfires spat their wild song,
Morocco drums dancing along —
However small and plain we are
We’ve lined our shoes with desert steps,
With constellations stirred our dreams,
Like sugar cubes into mint tea.
Citrus fingers and sticky lips,
Smiles flashing with words I missed
That wet-hair night, slick pavement light,
The hours led to where I’d never been;
Right down the centre of the street,
Right up the rafters, echoing stairs–
You remind me of someone I’ve always known.
Did we slurp popsicles in backyard summer?
Were we running in grass-stained torn-jeans sock-feet?
Did I dream the ocean was a running faucet,
And we were just putting on the kettle?
I agree with the colour of your eyes,
They send me jam jars full of springtime:
New green and the smell of morning rain;
This is hardly a memory,
But one day, maybe, it will be.
Mackenzie Lee 